if you want to experience what he meant
saying- 98; kill your ego!
The kingdom of the Father is like a certain man
who wanted to kill a powerful man.
In his own house he drew his sword and stuck it into the wall
in order to find out whether his hand could carry through.
Then he slew the powerful man.
The kingdom is again compared to a person, a certain man. The powerful man in this saying
likely refers to one’s ego. It should be sacrificed on the way to finding the kingdom.
Why did the “certain man” drive his sword into the wall of his own house?
Was it a kind of practice? Maybe to see whether he could wield the sword with sufficient power?
If so, he likely was not used to handling a sword, and certainly not for killing someone.
Maybe the hint here is that before you decide to kill your ego and lead the itinerant life,
make sure you will endure!
Here we are in very close proximity the Buddhist idea of non-ego/the egoless state
which is held conditional for enlightenment.
A seeker is someone who is prepared to sacrifice his ego.
If one is not prepared to see the kingdom as bound up with individuals,
and aims at "explaining" the sayings from strictly within the Hebrew, Greek or
Christian tradition, a saying like this one may seem the most problematic in the entire
parable corpus - Hedrick (2010).